❤ Understand = 了解 ?

Recently like to see his blog .
Means previous blog he wrote before .
Feel that , I really don't understand him .
Between a couple , is it shouldn't have any secrets ?
Or should have some space to each other ?

The answer for me ,
No , couple shouldn't have any secrets .
But the answer for him ,
Yes , should have some space to each other even a couple .
Funny , right ? HAHAHA , Sorry , not funny at all .
This is the problem .
We have different thought and ways in love .

Every time I feel that want to know him more .
But I feel like got a wall between us .
Is that he still used to his single life ?
What should i really do ?
Give up to more understand him ?
Follow his way of love ?

Many question marks in my brain right now .
All the answers are , I Don't Know !
I feel tired for everything .
Honestly , I felt want to give up before .
Just because , I still love you .
Thus , I still persist for it .
Once I give up , not mean I don't love you anymore ,
Just because , I feel too disappointed on you .

Sudden thought .
4am right now .
Good Night .

❤ 绝望

题目开得有点严重 . 其实没有这么严重啦 .
只是不知道要放些什么题目 . 所以就这样吧 .

从星期四开始吧 . 本来昨天要update了 .
可是很累 , 加上心情很糟糕 .
所以又延迟到今天了 .

28/10/10
今天跟朋友上完课没事做 , 结果跑去捐血了 .
一开始我不够重 , 所以就跟miko跑去吃东西 .
吃完后回来 , 果然真的够了 . 刚刚好 . =P
终于知道自己的血型了 . 摆了一场乌龙 .
还以为自己不是爸妈的女儿叻 . xD
捐血的时候出了一点意外 ,
不知道护士是没注意到我的血压还是插错了 .
护士帮我越插越深 . 痛 ~ T^T
在那个时候 , 真的觉得好想他在身边 .
很可惜的 , 原来他那时候是想要回家了 .
并没打算要来找我 . 很失望 .
算了吧 , 他并不知道我发生这么不幸的事 .
后来捐完了 , 我们就去画图 .
本来以为没事了 , 虽然手还是会痛 .
谁知道画画下我竟然头晕得不得了 >_<
后来在外面坐了一下 , 好很多了 .
跟他聊了下 , 聊得很不开心 .
那一刻 , 我觉得我们好像快结束了 .
可是他叫我不要乱想 . 我能吗 ?
晚上 , 为了哄我 ,
他终于肯带我去吃花生糊汤圆了 .
其实蛮开心的 , 可是被不开心的心情盖过了 .
今天的心情 , 好沉重 .

29/10/10
早上的课没去 , 因为早上太累了 , 好不舒服 .
不过再累还是要去 , 因为有test .
完全没读到 . 不过还好没有很难 .
多亏苇彬的悉心指导 哈哈哈 ~
考完试就能走了 . 很想去看他present .
可是怕影响他 , 所以还是没去 .
跟着他们去tbr吃 , 顺便等他 .
今天我们开始keyboard班了 , 嘻嘻 =P
原来我才是最没有天分的那个 T^T
老师叫我重复好多次哦 .
可是真的蛮喜欢keyboard的 =)
所以我要加油 ! 努力把指法练好 !
然后努力存钱买keyboard ! =D

30/10/10
平平淡淡 . 没事发生 .
剪了头发 , 不知道好不好看 .
个人觉得不会不喜欢啦 . 嘻嘻 .
准备要去尝试卷发了 . =)
现在跟一个八婆 - 嘉薇在dolphin .
要走了 . 不然那个八婆要强奸我了 xD
拜拜 ~~

❤ Improve

Hmmp , 这篇我打算用华语和英文来写 .
这样才公平 . =P
他可以学华语 , 我也能improve下 .
可是我想他不会这么用心去看吧 =_=

I felt kinda unhappy these few days after monday .
I don't know why , feel like everything back to before .
I never tell him about this .
Because , I promised him ,
I must more faith in him .

但是我想 , 胡思乱想是难免的吧 .
最近看了很多文章 .
胡思乱想是因为太过于在乎 .
可是他在乎我的胡思乱想吗 ?
或许他会觉得我无理取闹吧 .

Sorry for yesterday ,
I not only can't help you anything about the outline ,
also refute your idea ,
made you no mood to continue .
That's why , finally i choose to accompany you ,
support you silently .
Causing I had headache . >_<
But I hope that I'll always be there when you need me .

今天的你 , 或许是太累的关系吧 .
说了让我觉得蛮伤心的话 .
对于measurement , 刚开始时 ,
我真的很怕会fail , 因为老师说 ,
如果test fail了 , 就必须repeat .
我告诉了你 , 你却告诉我不fail就好了 .
对啊 , 对你来说或许简单吧 .
可是我真的没信心 . 结果你却没回复我了 .
当你回复我的时候 , 却是告诉我说 ,
因为你不知道怎样哄我 , 所以选择没回我 .
一句支持的话真的有这么难吗 ?
我没对这个继续跟你讲下去 ,
因为我害怕我们又会不开心了 .

Today sing k with my gang .
Not that excited . Maybe because of my mood .
Sang quite few songs .
Keep noticed in my phone .
Waited for his message .
After 2hours , finally he message me .
But soon , he fall asleep .
Traffic jam caused me home at 9pm . >_<
Turn me fall asleep when I laid on my bed .
Had a short talk with him .
Now , he is being pig again . =)

刚刚跟韦彬聊了下 , 或许真的是他今天太累了吧 .
我不该乱想太多 . 就让今天的他 , 好好休息吧 .
每天都在希望着 , 他别再对我忽冷忽热了 .
他心情不好的时候 , 我真的不知道该怎么办 .
很无助的感觉 . 到底什么时候 , 我的感觉才能稳定下来 ?
这样的感觉好难过 , 虽然很努力的在坚持着 .
可是我也会有想放弃的时候 ,
我是女生 , 我也会有累的时候 .

因为爱你 , 所以坚持 .
但也因为太爱你 , 总是伤了自己 .

❤ 叛逆

很久没用华语来写了 , 这次就用华语吧 . =)
昨天181010 , 是我最开心的一天 .
虽然在回家的时候有点小小的意外 ,
可是只要有他在 , 再坏的事情都会变的不这么坏了 . =P
谢谢他总是在我不开心的时候 ,
给予我一个拥抱 , 一句"不怕 , 有我在" ,
让我觉得安慰了许多 ..

前天晚上他在我旁边顽皮的在玩着河童 .
本来我只是想作弄他 , 谁知道把他吓着了 .
那一刻看到他的表情 , 我才真正的感觉到 ,
第一次感觉到 , 他是真的很爱我的 ..
我哭了 .. 为什么 ? 够白痴的我 .. >_<
不知道 , 只是觉得自己好幸福好幸福 !
很久都没试过这样了 , 喜极而泣 =P

刚刚把English Presentation的outline做完了 .
总算是完成了一步 , 可是 ..
还要present啊 ! 够倒霉的 !
竟然抽到了二号 ! T^T 多谢Dear啊 !
哈哈 , 没有啦 , 其实二号也有二号的好 .
那我就可以快点完成 , 快点轻松 .
更可以更专心的在别的assignment了 . =)

最近都很晚回家 , 是我变叛逆了吗 ?
但是 , 我从以前就是这样 , 不是吗 ?
为什么妈咪最近变得这样神经兮兮了 ?
唉 .. 我觉得好累 .. 我好想要回以前的那个妈咪 .
以前无论我出到有多晚 , 只要一个交代 ,
就不成问题了 . 可是现在 ... ?
为什么会变成这样 ?
这样的家 , 让我好想逃离 ..
刚才在Dear的面前 , 多次想告诉他 ,
我好想好想搬出来住 ..
可是我说不出口 , 不知道为什么 ..

跟他在一起一个月了 =)
谢谢Dear送给我的礼物 ..
Dear给了我几个惊喜 , 还真的蛮意外的 .
嘻嘻 .. 害我好paiseh =_=
不行 , 下个月我一定要完成 ! =D

Dear , ILY ! ❤

❤ Aiks

See ! My mood is getting wrong again !
What's wrong with me these few days ?
Keep think something negative . aiks .
What I think ? Love , Friends or Studies ?
All of these I think .
I realize I really lack of confidence in all the things .

Studies
I really scared I can't complete the diploma course .
Ha ha ha , not funny at all . =_=

Friends
Funny thing is ,
I feel that I always been forgotten .
Maybe , I'm not so that important in their heart .

Love
Since when I lack of confidence in this ?
I really don't know .
Maybe , long ago .


Well , as he said ,
Things should be happy .
I hope I can do that .

More 5 hours ,
I'll go for gym with my dear .
He was decided for join the teakwondo championship .
I'll going to support him on Sunday . =)

Finally , he was decided all the questions around him .
I hope I can help him when he feel confuse or hesitate .
I really wish to though I always can't to make a decision . >_<
We'll learn keyboard together soon .
Happy and excited for it . =P

It's happy to heard you said ,
I'm your first and also the last one .
I hope that is not just a sweet words .

Hmmp , in fact ,
I should be sleep before 2hours .
Sorry , don't angry .
I know I'm always naughty . >_<
But I really scared to see your ANGRY face .
You know that , right ? =(

Good Night .
IMY ❤

❤ Difference

Sorry Dear , I haven't sleep yet .
Because I feel like to blogging now .

I hate the feel .
Very different feel .
That's why every time I don't feel to home .
Forgive for my willful .

I'm afraid the same thing will be happen again .
I'm afraid I will lose you .

I hate myself .
I hate I always simply think .
I hate I always think negative .
Although you ask me reduce it to 20% ,
It's hard for me .
Forgive again , for my useless .

Dear , I Love You .
Always be .

Good Night .

❤ Sorry Dear

maybe ,
this was 1st time I'm not beside you when you need me ..
sorry dear , I'm really felt helpless and tired yesterday ..
I don't know whether we can solve all those problem or not ..
you said I have not enough faith in you .. didn't even a little ..
I don't know what should i say when you told me these ..
so , I choose to not reply you ..
I never want to escape this problem ,
but , I really speechless and helpless at the moment ..

when you tried to settle down our arguement ..
I cried serious immediately ..
I cried , not because of I angry ,
I felt suffer why we can't like normal couple ..
I cried , not because of I sad ,
I felt not worth why we always argue because of little thing ..

I like the feel we stay together ,
I hate the feel after we both back home ..
I hope I can see you every day ,
every hour , every minute , even every second ..

Dear , I know sometimes I'll so easy to angry or stress ..
make you feel suffer and tired ..

Sorry Dear ..
maybe , I were too care about you ..
maybe , I'm not the person that you really needed ..
maybe , we shouldn't have a start ..
maybe , we don't suit each other ..

Sorry Dear ..
I felt depression .. felt that ,
you're not happy after we stay together ..
you need to face more problem that you never face before ..
I can't even give you some supports ..

The only word I can say now ..
Sorry Dear .........

❤ Hate Pm =(

I remember that i used to like to walk pasar malam very much ..
because i like the feel of walk and buy anything i like ..
but i hate it now ! .. =(
because he was 1st time rejected me just reason of this ..
quite sad to heard rejected by him ..
especially is the thing i like to do with but he don't like ..
i won't suggest to go anymore .. wuwu ~
maybe , our hobby really very big different ?
i don't know .. sad .. T^T

Today is my dearest friend , Yuby's birthday ..
but we are no one to wish her today ..
because we decided to give her a surprise tomorrow .. =P
haha , wait for our surprise ! =D

3am now .. it's time to write my ABC jor =.=
quite hate it .. but as he said ..
everything stand from another side to see ,
besides the difficult and trouble ,
you can get satisfactory when you done ..
hmmp , something like that .. xD

it's happy to heard wei khang was decided to continue study ..
furthermore , he was in love already ! xD
everyone is happy .. that is what i hope now .. =)
love you guys ! muacks ^^

Good Night To All My Dear ❤

❤ For You

我没有很想你
我只是在早上醒来的时候，看看手机，
有没有你发来的信息，有没有你的未接来电。

我没有很想你
我只是在上网的时候，首先关注你的空间，
看看你最近是不是有更新。

我没有很想你
我只是在聊天的时候，翻阅你发给我的短信，
看着你的照片，回忆一下那些美好时光。

我没有很想你
我只是饿了会想你饿么，冷了想你会冷么。

我没有很想你
我只是走在大街上看到男男女女，
好希望那一对对里有我们。

我没有很想你
我只是把你的来电调成唯一的铃音，放在我身边，
并时不时的看看是否自动关机，是否信号良好。

我没有很想你
我只是在吃小吃的时候，想如果你能和我一起吃，
那该是多幸福的事啊。

我没有很想你
我只是在听歌的时候，偶尔会被某句歌词击中，
想第一时间让你知道我的感受。

我没有很想你
我只是想看看你的样子，听听你的声音。

我没有很想你
我只是在别人无意提起你的时候，
放下手上的工作，专心的听着关于你的一切。

我没有很想你
我只是在睡前紧握着手机，等待着你的情话，
等待着你说晚安。

我没有很想你
我只是睡不着的时候想想你，
但是，我不知道我是因为睡不着而想你，
还是因为想你而睡不着

我没有很想你
我只是在每次醒来的时候，第一个想到你……

或许想念只属于某一个人，如果两个人都在想念彼此，那一定是一对幸福的恋人

我很想你

刚看到这个 ， 完全符合我想对你说的话 。
笨蛋 ， 你看见了吗 ？
你知道吗 ？ 一直都好想你 ...

❤ hmmp

hmmmmmmp , nothing .
just want to write down something ..

** Legend Of The First : Chen Zhen
** Charlie St Cloud
** Devil
** Wall Street : Money Never Sleeps

hehe , wonder why i will write this right ?
some of my dearest friends sure know one . =P

secret =)

actually secret quite difficult for me . =(
but i will stand for it ^^

it's time to sleep .
good night =)